Matthew's Journal

I really think I should start keeping a note of my sleeping patterns, but that's by the by. Today I woke up around 04:30, having gone to bed (in a turn the lights off, stop talking to atreic sort of way) at around 23:00-23:30. I've been awake ever since, so sorry if this resulted in some slightly odd comments on your LJ!

Sometimes I wake up early, pee, and then go back to bed, and drift off fairly swiftly again, waking at a more sensible hour. On a minority of cases, like today, I really am properly awake, and then can't get back to sleep again (at which point, it feels like my usual sort of insomnia - brain won't shut down worrying/thinking about things enough). On days like today, if I do manage to sleep, then when I wake again in a couple of hours, I feel dreadful, and 3/4 asleep.

It's not that light in our room, and indeed unlike some mornings when I wake to sunlight shining quite strongly through the curtains, I suspect that if I catch an hour or two's more sleep, when I do wake again, it'll be dark enough to make me sleepy.

I wish I understood what caused this (or, indeed, how to avoid it). It's most annoying; actually, though, my sleeping patterns have been a bit whacky for a while now - most days when atreic is here, I go to bed with her around 22:30, sleep through to around 08:30, and still wake up feeling groggy and tired and "argh, I want to sleep some more" - it's certainly possible to doze for another couple of hours if I let myself!